OHHH HAAYYYY.

I miss esco. 12 more hours til I'm on a bus to Montreal! I am not looking forward to lugging a backpack around. Sleeping on a bus isn't the best, and I couldn't sleep in a hotel bed last night. Hhhhhwhhhhyyy?!?! Perhaps its this stomach flu. Sucks, bro. Toronto is the best. I love my toronto life. Niagara is quite apocalyptic right now. I was waiting for a zombie to jump out at me. It didn't happen. Alex and I went for some beers. Our fights have been minimal. He has funny jokes. I'm funnier though.
I'm excited for Montreal. I've never been!
Everyone hides out in the casinos and bars in niagara. They didn't have the lights on at night for the falls. I was able to catch a zillion rainbows during the day. I loooove colors! A buffet cost $50. And most dishes were meat. What a waste of my life. Did I mention I miss esco?!
Hi.

What was this entry?! I haven't slept. Leggo.

WORD VOMIT!

- I'm sick.
- I'm in Scarborough.
- I'm chasing Buckley's cough syrup with orange juice.
- It was cold out today, but I have a fever.
- I killed Alex in Scrabble. I never lose Scrabble, sorreh.
- Orange juice with cough syrup is kinda like a really shitty shirley temple.
- I don't mind that I'm sick.
- The slush outside made me not wanna venture anywhere.
- Louis CK is soooo funny, I can't stop watching him.
- I've been listening to A LOT of Nouvelle Vague, A LOT of Class Actress.
- I like Wu-Tang.
- Alex got a new tattoo. It's a good one.
- I forgot my notebook. DRATS.
- I want a yacht. Big boats are terrible for the environment.
- I care about dolphins. SAVE THE DOLPHINS.
- My favorite animals are elephants, though.
- I LOOOOVEEEEE PUUURRRRRPPPLE.
- Still love my team, awwwww.

GONNA HAVE YOU TREMBLIN.

Hey guys, wanna hear about the best weekend of my life?! Then go ahead and get lost between god and a shot of scotch.



It started out Friday. Meet ups for the beautiful Kalliane's birthday. I don't think we've ever jumped that much in our life. Did I mention I have the baddest team in the universe?! I love my friends so much. You know when random strangers come up to you and tell you, "yo you girls are always the illest ones here".. that it was a good night. Drinks were spilling, fashion was blazing, and music was bomb. Not even gum in my hair and three girls ripping my hair out to get it out could ruin the night. It was actually kind of funny.

Botch: "my poor hair :( all this gum!"
Joe: "Ah don't worry Botch, you have tons of hair! Long hair!"
Botch: "Yeah you're right, fuck it". lol

The ONLY downfall of this night was having a pervy fucking cab driver pissing me off at 4 in the morning. It's never fun having to get out of a cab, drunk, in the blistering cold, at 4 am because you don't take shit from no one. Actually.. that was pretty awesome too. Don't fuck with Botch, thunn.

Saturday started out with some laughs. Which is exactly what I needed after hating the way things have been going lately. Whenever you're down in the dumps, surround yourself with good people. I think my favorite thing about going to comedy clubs is the food. It was my sister's birthday and she killed it. She's such a beauty:) The comedian was jokes too, "What flavor was this!? OH! GRAPE!.. maybe". BUT I THOROUGHLY enjoyed my dip platter, best hangover food ever. Spinach dip, HUMMUS! Omnomnom.



After that comedy trip.. It was time for dubstep Saturday. HOLY SHIT. I think we did a total of three locations, and each one was playing the most amount of dubstep you could ask for. Dj Araab Muzik was phenomenal. That guy puts in work when he djs! Oh my heart. How does a dj make you feel like you're up there playing what he's playing?! Well he did, and it was awesome.







Move on to Sunday, FUN DAY! Amber graced my life to give me a much needed haircut. Goodbye gum ripped hair! Amber time doesn't happen often with busy schedules and what not, so a night and a day with her, well.. it was a real treat.. After that, it was time for some much anticipated FEASTING. My family gets together what feels like every Sunday for some much needed eating. It's crazy. You'd think these Frenchies and Filipinos were Italians. THEY LIKE TO EAT. Seafood pasta, pasta salad, Chow Mein, Scalloped Potatoes, Roast, Lemon baked Tilapia, Battered Shrimp, dude! The list goes on. What's better than that?! Bringing Kalliane along for the ride and throwing in some rap karaoke.



After that fiasco, went to check out a cover band. They played the Beastie Boys AND the Ramones right after each other, so once that happened, I knew it would be a good night. I was right. I got a phone call at midnight that changed my entire perspective on my current situation. THANK YOU, for that. You're the reason I'm always getting faded! ANDDD it made my entire weekend. That's all I really wanted.. AND RIGHT AT MIDNIGHT! Not a minute later. Our next location was a set up for some mean hip hop. Foxy Brown, KRS ONE, Lost Boyz, AND all played by a female dj. She put on! Our next location was full of more dubstep. Dubstep all over the place!

Then.. this happened..


Don't you just love text message parties?! Afterwards finished half a bottle of wine and hit up even more dubstep. This night went til 7 in the morning. DEATH.

MONDAY! I hadn't slept but put on my "let's go get em" pants. Six hours of sleep in like four days can really fuck you up. "Rollin rollin rollin, I ain't slept in weeks". I met up with my friend Ryan for coffee. We could talk for hours, and I really miss that now that we each live in different cities. We stopped by his place and six years ago we started filling in a Wu-Tang symbol on his blinds. I think it took us like two months to finish filling. You try filling in a Wu on fucking blinds, with a sharpie, shit is hard. Plus I got to meet his turtle! What more could you ask for on a Sunday?! Then I came home and vomited my guts out. You know. Sexy type shit.





So, what did I learn this weekend?! I learned that I can't make anyone want what I want. I learned getting gum in your hair really fucking sucks. I learned that beer still rules. I learned that hip hop isn't dead, and never will be. I learned that no matter what happens to me, I have enough good to out-weigh the negative.

And fuck, if I have anything to be thankful for, it's definitely that.
Stay up.

Glorious darling, absolutely glorious.

OH, KANYE.

FRRRRIIIIDAAYYY IT'S FRIIIIDDDAAYYYY!!

Yesterday my girlfriends and I held a swap party. What is a swap party?! Every person attending brings clothes/jewellery/purses/things they don't want anymore. Everything is piled and you take turns picking things that catch your eye. It's basically like donating your closet, and getting a brand new wardrobe. Set it up! It's fun. We added a few bottles of champagne, wine, smoke and some pizza.. Free shopping, good friends and good times?! All about it! There was seven of us total.



Anyway, after finishing a bottle of wine I was really haggered. Getting home at 4 am, sleeping three hours and then heading to work was my Friday. Now that I'm off work and done running around the city, it's time for some not-so-deserved lazy time. This week sucked, I'm so over it. I just want to throw it all into a bottle of beer. AND IT'S A LONG WEEKEND. HELLO WEEKEND, you're always appreciated! Let's fucking get it! Long hair, don't care. DON'T CARE!

BIG L, RIP.

UUUUNNNNNNFFFFFF

I would do dirt nasty freakish biting type shit to this man. I can barely keep my pants on just watching him.

WORD VOMIT!

- I heard a guy say, "I think his name is Jeremy Hing" today.
- He missed that train. JEREMY LIN, I AM AVAILABLE FOR MARRIAGE.
- Cudi is starting to become irrelevant. JUST GIVE US OUR MUSIC CUDI!
- Where did the sun go?!
- Tj said "writing is your talent, it's intense". BFF, brah.
- I'm thinking about cancelling my cable.
- $$ in the bank! Shawty what chu drank!
- I'm having a coffee, jazz is playing, and snow is falling outside the window.
- Muffled giggles from customers and other coffee drinkers makes this one pleasant Wednesday.
- Lex is right, Kendrick Lamar is somethin' nice.
- Today is Freddie's birthday! *reggae horn*
- I really, really, really like hip hop.
- HI PERLA! YOU'RE PRETTY!
- I can't get enough of Childish Gambino! MOREMOREMORE.
- Fuck taxes.

THEY GON' KISS THE RING THIS YEAR, BOOOYYY.

Happy Valentine's Day.
The lamest holiday ever, we don't even get it off work. Hmph.

Xoxo,

Botch.

212.

ROSES ARE RED. VIOLETS ARE BLUE. WHAT'S YOUR DICK LIKE, HOMIE? WHAT ARE YOU INTO?

VALENTINE'S DAY IS EASY.

Really it is. From a female perspective, this day is for every female breathing. What does she want you ask?! The full princess treatment.

I'll break it down so it's easier:

- Flowers are ALWAYS a win. I don't know when dudes started thinking flowers were over-rated, but they aren't!
- Long stem roses are usually a number one pick (NEVER yellow ones), but if you can't afford that shit, she'll be happy with anything other than spider-mums.
- If you go in and tell a florist, "I wanna spend this much, help", they'll work it out!
- Stuffed animals that read "I love you" or "Happy V-Day" are lame as fuck, never get us that.
- We will take chocolates though, boxed chocolates, OR SWEETS. A box full of cupcakes will earn you one mean make-out session.
- YOU plan it. No female wants to plan a Valentine's Day, we want to be treated.
- A spa date, a basketball game, a dinner, whatever you plan, as long as you put in an effort, she'll be thankful.
- Creativity and sweetness will take you a long way, traditionals are expected, creativity will earn you one mean sex session.
- Little things go a long way. I had a complete stranger tell me today, "Happy Valentine's Day, beautiful". That made it complete enough for me!
- If you can't give her a lot, I once had an ex-boyfriend run me a bath and made me dinner. Simplicity is just as lovely as a pricey dinner date. Be thoughtful!

And if you're alone on Valentine's Day, don't fret! Tomorrow all the chocolate you could imagine will be 50% off..! What could be better?! :) It might be the lamest holiday on the planet, so fuck a day. Love yourself, every day! That's who matters most.

Let's go get em! A million Xo's to all my readers and my favorites. You know who the fuck you are. Love is love! Botch loves you!

BIRTHDAYYYS.

It's been six months since we've been together. Six months. AND ALLLTHOUUUGGHHH, we keep it civil most days, arguments still come. AND ALLLLTHOUUUGGHHH, I tell you I absolutely hate your guts.. it isn't true. You're one of the dopest people to ever step foot into my life. You're kind, you're smart, you're fit, and you're completely in love with me.. and I don't know why you are! But you are! And I promise, to stick around.
I remember the first time you told me your birthday was on Valentine's Day, and I didn't believe you. You had to show me your driver's license and I was still, "Is this legit?!". I'm pretty positive you were given your birthday because of your huge heart. Seriously, that thing stretches for miles. How do you do it?! You've helped me out a lot, and I've discovered so many things thanks to you. I owe you a zillion for that.
You're truly some kind of wonderful, and I wish you all the best today. It's your birthday! And since we're both valentine-less, we'll both be gettin drunk tonight! Cheers to my lonerism, and to your birthday! You deserve the world, don't ever doubt that you can't get it. I most certainly believe that you can. I'll toast to you tonight, I hope you hear the clank:)

And yo, clean your room.

ARGUMENTS ARE MADE FROM MAKE OUTS. SO JUST GIVE IT A LITTLE MORE TIME.

NO NO NO NO NO!! Who is this girl!?

I like her rings, and her jacket.. BUT DAMMIT DONALD!

Oh the perks of being a video girl.

MARRY ME CHILDISH GAMBINO!! Please marry me!!

"YO BOTCHO, YOUR BLOG SUCKS!"

- RANDOM.


Yes. I've finally made it!

EVERYTHING SAID WITHOUT SAYING.

I never asked, nor wanted, actually wait. I never SAID. There's a difference between being angry and being un-comfortable. I'm not angry, I'm un-comfortable. There's a difference between hearing, and seeing. I saw. There's a difference between wanting and changing. I'm wanting.
I don't change my views much.. but I do try to think a certain way when I believe a different way. Does that.. wait. Sorry, what?

I know.

Life, why you so cray?!

Things happen, good, bad, shmeh. This was just a shmeh. I need to learn to teach myself that I can enjoy knowing other people's happiness won't always include me. That's totes fine.

You do you, I'll do me.

And we'll both have a good time doing it.

I bet you think this entry's about you, don't you? It's not.

WORD VOMIT!

- Kanye West, Frank Ocean, AND Tyler the Creator?! YES PLEASE.
- Hangovers that prevent you from doing anything?! NO MORE.
- I say no more, but what I really mean is, they suck and they will happen again.
- Coachella research is hard work.
- College can suck it.
- I can be everything you want or everything you hate. The choice is yours.
- Juicy J always makes me laugh, "you say no to drugs, juicy j can't".
- Class Actress is almost the only thing I want to listen to right now. ALMOST.
- Grove salad? For life.
- I don't give a fuck about the grammys.
- The world would be a better place if pubic hair didn't exist.
- JEREMY LIN! $14 million, mattah fact, bigguh number..
- I am worth a gillyun. IMDABES.
- Scarborough, twerk team, Lizur, Tj, Jheff. Thank you.


Durka durka.

MY CHAIN HITS MY CHEST WHEN I'M BANGIN ON THE DASHBOARD.

LIVE FAST, DIE YOUNG, BAD GIRLS DO IT WELL. GET BACK, GET DOWN. PULL ME CLOSER, IF YOU THINK YOU CAN HANG.

- M.I.A.

WORD VOMIT!

- I've had sleep paralysis for like over a week straight.
- I love my team. Swaggin goin' swell.
- MUSIC IS SOO GOOD RIGHT NOW.
- There isn't enough time in the world to prepare me for Grippin Grain.
- I don't know what you want, and that's fine. I hope you figure it out.
- School just called me and ruined my life lol.
- How are they allowed to tell me "you don't have class, just kidding you have class in like two hours"
- Is that even allowed?! WAHH.
- Minor Botch meltdown, people. MINOR BOTCH MELTDOWN.
- ANNNNDDDDD.. I'm stressed to shit.
- GET ME FAMOUS NOW.
- Oh my lanta. I need a beer, stat.

PULL ME CLOSER IF YOU THINK YOU CAN HANG..

EXCUSE THE VULGARITY, I'M STILL NOT FULLY ADJUSTED..

What's to say? I mean, it's just my boyfriend being fucking awesome with the fucking ROOTS.

Oh Nas. WHY THE FUCK HAVEN'T I MET YOU YET?!

Also.. Nasty is still one of the most illy songs evaaaahhhhhh..


Excuse the vulgarity, I’m still not fully adjusted/ Or used to the new fans hearin’ me spit rapidly/ I never see the whips niggas be claimin’ they drivin’/ I guess entertainment means blatantly lyin’/ Fake it ’til you make it, I’ve driven those toys/ Been in the wars, in the streets, cops kickin’ in doors/ For my deen niggas, your flow cheap as limousine liquor/ I’m no fake rap CD listener, sit back and roll a mean swisher/ For my Gs, tell these clowns make room for the king!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Seriously, like move. Nas, only.

WOULD YOU PEEP IT IF HE LEAKED IT?

I mean, it's Blu.. and it's produced by Madlib.. so like, how can you not?

SHE GOT THIS SHIT ON PADLOCK, THE COMBINATION, I GOT..

MIXTAPE MONDAY

ROCKIE FRESH - DRIVIN '88

I found Rockie Fresh by accident. I was honestly trying to find an A$AP ROCKY song, and stumbled upon "Drivin 88". OHHH BOYYY BUT WHENNN I DIIIIDDD..
This guy is dope...... I legit, wanna have sex with this mixtape. Like, I'd take this music, and rub it in my crotch if I could. Too much?! Listen to it and tell me otherwise.

Hosted by DJ Ill Will! The tape starts off with Rockie saying exactly what he wants. He wants to make music, and he wants the good shit. I will start off by saying flat out, this "mixtape" could have easily been an album, EASILY. This guy doesn't have a fucking care in the world, and you get that vibe from the tape.

Filled with mid-tempo beats, a chilled voice that gives you shivers, and lines that make you love music all over again, this Chicago rapper is every bit of refreshing. After we leave the intro, we head into "Drivin '88". Smooth flow and the help of Casey Veggies, you're already head bobbin.. Then we move into "Never Never". YUP! A SBTRKT SAMPLE! I nearly hit the roof with joy when I heard that shit. OH MAN. My heart is beating so fast right now just typing about it. "They thought that I would fail, they only see me making it", he says. This local rapper is blowing up, he knows it, and he deserves it.
He has punchlines, but not a lot.. and I feel like that's solely because he doesn't need them. He's saying what he feels, and it comes off right. There's just something about his flow that captures you.. You forget you're listening to a song, and you legit feel like he's talking to you. I won't get into this song by song.. I will say I'm giving it a 4.5/5. EVEN though I think the "Back to the Future" deal is a little wah. I understand that the theme works for the tape, I appreciate the movie references.. but sometimes it gets a little.. "been here". Wale already did that. AND, some of the cuts are a little messy for me. Don't take that for anything more than it is, this is probably going to be my favorite mixtape of the year. I don't see much wrong with it.. so I can't really take away from it. I just can't. I'd feel guilty if I said this is anything less than a 4.5. I even hate the song, "Turn it up", because of it's pop type sound. BUT STILL. It's a solid tape.
Regardless of THAT fact, Rockie deserves all the good talk he's getting right now. I look forward to seeing/hearing what's next. Legit this has been on rotation for over a week now.

4.5/5

Download/stream for free: HERE

HOW MANY?! BOYS THERE.. HOW MANY?!

M.I.A.

MUSIC SERIES

I can't exactly remember how I discovered M.I.A., but I remember the feeling being absolutely magical. She was everything I wanted from a female musician. She rapped well, she was a humanitarian, she dressed well, and she had swag to match. This girl is the definition of a boss lady, and I fucking love her for that. I was able to catch her live five years ago, and she tore the fucking roof off! This girl is phenomenal live. If you have a shot to see her, do.

Her music contains all the elements you're looking for, world, electronica, hip hop, pure awesome. What she feeds to the world through both fashion and music is that of no other. She's never afraid to test boundaries, and she does it well.

She was raised during a Sri Lankan war, and has the most hurtful and terrifying stories to tell. Yet she tells them honestly, and gives back to her people. I remember reading this article on her where times were so rough, she was literally hiding under dead bodies, trying to avoid soldiers that wanted to kill her. You make it through that, attend college, and develop a music career that is based on realism and originality, and fuck! You've got one of the dopest musicians to ever grace the fucking planet.

Rihanna and all these pop twats are just a bootleg carbon wannabe copy of one of the sickest female musicians on the scene right now. She rules. Take it from one of my favorite M.I.A. songs, ever..



Get 'em girl!

BEW BEW BOH BEW.. BEW BEW BOH BEW..

M83

MUSIC SERIES

If my love for M83 hasn't been expressed enough.. I'll try now. I. Fucking. Love. M83. Like it's ridiculous. "Midnight City" is a song created for kings and queens. For Gods. For princesses! I have never heard this song whilst out.. that was until, they played it for me on my birthday. It was absolutely perfect. I was kind of half glad they didn't play it on New Years, because hearing it on my birthday made me appreciate it that much more. I know there's a zillion and one remixes out for it right meow.. but yo.. the original. Nobody's touching it.

They named themselves off a galaxy, and that's pretty much how you feel when you're listening to them. You just get lost in this some sort of hypnosis type state where everything feels like.. water. You just flow, and your whole body turns into some sort of orgasmic type lovah lovah yum yum yes. Now I don't know what that means exactly, but I know that I mean it.

Really though, if ever I'm in a shit ass mood, go ahead and play me some M83. I'll probably fall in love with you, instantly.

I know I've only spoke of "Midnight City".. but it's amaze. The video kicks ass too.



Enjoy!

BAD GIRLS ARE BETTER.

I FUCKING LOVE HER! BOSSIEST VIDEO EVER!! ACKKKK.. Is.. this.. is.. Yeah. Just lemme watch this a zillion times more. BEST.

"SHE DON'T COOK OR CLEAN, BUT SHE DRESS HER ASS OFF, AND HER WALK IS MEAN."

-JAY-Z.

A-ROD IS GONNA GRILL ME FOR THIS ONE..

Go ahead and state the Tom Brady case. I already know. If you've read my old blogs, you see I was cheering for the Patriots always. I'm torn. I'm fucking torn. Eli is one fuck of a boss. Let the countdown begin! I'ma paint my nails and drink beer while I watch. Like a boss.

RANTRANTRANTRANT.

If you fuck with me, I'll fuck with you.. and I will go to EXTREMES to fuck with you. Making the entire world know you're an ignant son of a bitch.
I'm just saying, is all.

TODAY WAS HORRIBLE! It started out so good, then just went fucking shit! Last night was shit too. I dunno. What. The. Fuck. People are just fucking vicious. I've never made a point to be an asshole. Really, I try to be as kind as I can to everyone. Even people I dislike. I feel that being kind to someone you dislike, doesn't make you fake. It just means you're mature enough to tolerate a person so that life runs smoother. HOWEVER.. if someone were to deliberately fuck with me, I more than dislike them.. I want to ruin them and make them cry.. AND, if that opportunity arises, you can expect me to do it.

Shots fired. Don't speak up if you aren't ready to hear me speak louder.

I always win.

SUNDAY.

Anonymous asked: Style is awesome, do u date?
i date alls the time.

Anonymous asked: i love you
thank you!

WORD VOMIT.

- I don't sleep enough.
- Frank Ocean is still that dude.
- The Rockie Fresh mixtape is good.
- The weather is beautiful.
- City of God (the book) is turning out to be.. un-expected.
- Chuck's "Damned" was fucking phenomenal.
- Shredding paper is fun.. until you do it for four hours.
- Lana Del Rey is a fucking goddess.
- Happy Birthday, Tj!
- Music is so good.
- Keys n Krates was/is always great. Thanks for coming back, guys.
- I like salsa.
- Partying and fashion.
- I've been spending way too much $$$.


I don't want anything but truth, and time. If you can't give me that, I'll move on about with my own business. This is a worry free zone. Join me if you want to, or keep walking. My team, Scarborough, Perla, Lize, Esco, good music and the night. Subliminal shots are never fired. These are general statements.

Xoxo.

FIRST LOVE.

February 20th!

GOODBYES AND WELL WISHES.

It was the night before my birthday. A Tuesday. I was at dinner with some family and friends. A girl we all knew was grieving over an ex who passed away. It was our current discussion, as well as debate. One guy was saying how he didn't understand why she was upset, given the fact that they had broken up seven years ago. My argument was that it didn't matter. Time didn't matter. Every person that has ever come into your life, has made you, you. They helped to shape you, regardless of the amount of time that has passed, and regardless of how the relationship ended. That's when I said this, "If I were to ever find out, someone like, Matt, passed away.. although we didn't even date for that long, I'd still be upset." I don't know why I said it. I don't know why of all people, his name slipped out. It was that same night, I found out Matt was missing.
I flipped. I freaked. I tried to keep all emotions to a minimum, but finding that out after that dinner discussion was making my head crazy. I spent the next few days reading over old blog entries about him, watching videos of him, and hoping for the best. Then a few days later, the worst news came, he had been found, and he had passed.



I attended the funeral. I had to.. and it was absolutely beautiful. When his casket opened, I cried to the point of nearly vomiting and Lize had to hold me down. It was good-bye. It's rare that you expect goodbyes.. and this was completely unexpected, and in blatant form, sad. Sharon (although I don't know her) had a beautiful speech, everyone did. I'm sure he would've appreciated every second.

He was an amazing person who told me I always smelled like sharpies, was hilarious as fuck, took me for my first ever vietnamese meal, and had a lot of people who cared about him. You touched a lot of lives Matt, whether for short, or for your entire life.. and I'm so thankful that I had the opportunity to know you. Thank you for everything you've given me, and everything you've given to every person you knew. That's how he'll continue to grace other lives. By spreading his positivity through the people he knew.













Goodbye Matt, we'll miss you so much.