BE.

BE BRAVE. BE BOLD.

Do not babysit. Take care of yourself. If one isn't helping you, they do not see your helping hand. MOVE. MAKE MOVES. Grind. PUSH. Push until everything you've wanted in the past year is yours and then PUSH HARDER. Never let anyone know how much money is in your bank account. If anyone goes through your phone without permission, let them go. Learn to trust. Learn that mistakes are okay. It's okay to grieve. It is okay to cry. Pain is real, and must be felt. It makes us human. Be mature. Don't be jealous. Be thoughtful. Never ask where it is, look first. Take things apart. Listen more, talk about yourself less. Take care of animals. Accept weirdos. Wear something you're afraid to. Shine more. Stand up for yourself. Teach yourself something new. Never stop learning. Never stop exploring. Work as hard as you can at work, but play as hard as you can at play. Learn to do both. Don't let anyone judge your choices if they are not hurting yourself or others. Cut your hair. Dye your hair. Smell roses. Buy someone flowers. Be organized. Ask questions. Read more. Don't show off. Don't brag. Don't be arrogant. Remember where you came from. Respect your elders. Be kind and gentle. Be honest. Be sociable. Watch your tone. Change your mannerisms to suit situations. Laugh louder. Take chances. Dance. Love.

Be yours. Be mine. Be wonderful. Be everything that is charming, electric, spontaneous, and wholesome. Be every great day, to help get past every bad.

DAD AND GOOD DEEDS DAY.

Tomorrow marks 19 years in my dad's passing. To celebrate the superman that touched the lives of many, I am leaving a sneak attack sack of kindness in a lower income neighborhood. My good deeds day bag couldn't have come at a better time!

What's included:
4 rolls of toilet paper
Package of facial tissue (8)
1 box of tea
2 bottles of water
Canned chili
Granola bars
Juice boxes
2 toothbrushes
Shampoo and conditioner
4 memo pads
5 pens
4 packages of instant noodles
Bandaids
1 reusable water bottle.
Baby wipes
Emergency weather poncho
1 deck of cards
1 flashlight
1 canned coffee
Deodorant
Toothpaste
6 individual jellos

My dad always gave us everything so we could give back. Love is love.

You can find out more about Good Deeds Day here: http://gdd.goodnet.org/
And also what we do! Here: http://thegaryeffect.ca/

WORK WORK WORK WORK.

Lately I've been working extra hours and weekends. GIRL PUT IN WORK GIRL GIRL PUT IN WORK.

12 hour work days got me in a work daze.

I love it though.

Yesterday was moving day.

It was also puppy visit day.

It is disgusting outside. Winter is forever.

Tomorrow is my dad's anniversary. People forget that.

My next adventure shall begin in Montreal.

Faire des choix. Choix nous faire.

Stay tuned.

Au revoir.

I WITNESS NEWS.

"BED HEAD IS AMAZING."

Room 220.

Sad days.

Our darling Khoda, is getting put down today. When it rains, it pours. She was one of the happiest pups to ever be a part of our family and we will miss her a lot. Those blue eyes stole hearts.

Sad year continues. Get your cries on.

Xoxoxo goodbye Khoda :(

WEARING HATRED ON OUR MASKS.

I've never made myself to look perfect. I make mistakes and have always laid them out to the best of ability. I've admitted to every decision I've made. Sometimes late, but always honest.

I refuse to let the phantoms of 8 months ago define what I've become. I've been to funerals, bars, and basement floors, but I'm still fucking standing. Count the times this lost little girl has cried herself to sleep, and you'll reach numbers you've forgotten existed. If you don't see my better, I do, and I will not punish myself, more importantly, I will not let anybody punish me. I tell everyone the greatness, the fiasco, the love. When you go telling the world how awful of a person I am, it shows how much respect I ever held. Fucking none.

Oh, and the answer so your fucking question, No, I fucking haven't.

You're wearing a disguise and I don't know that person anymore. A ghost. A phantom.

Love can make suicide sound so cool.

You've never heard a word I've said.