OH HEY, IT'S ME BOTCH.

You may remember me from such blogs as, my livejournal.. or .. this one; which I have neglected a lot for the past few. I have no good reason, either. I mean, I have been in school, but it's not like I've been studying my ass off or anything. Quite the contrary as of late, actually.
I'm super tired. It must be that whole winter creep. As soon as I get home, I just want to go to bed. Waking up is extremely difficult.. but blah blah. First world problems.
Thanksgiving just passed. I'm Canadian, we get ours early. It was our first without Anthony. Every year, it's tradition we gather around the table and take turns saying what we're thankful for. No one was really into it this year. It was really sad. Everyone felt it, but no one said anything for a long while. Then after our dinner, there was a huge piece of cake left, and I asked who it was for. "That's for Anthony!", my cousin shot at me. It was sweet, lovely, but made me cry all over the place. We ended up carving an "A" into the icing.
Ugh, I miss him so much. I came across a picture from a concert we went to last December, he was in the background, smiling his ass off. Looking mad geeked out. I wanted to place myself back at that moment and give him the biggest hug, and tell him how much fun I was having. Super bummed. I don't even want to think about Christmas. He always gave out the best gifts, and always wrapped in newspaper. Last year he got me a Wu-Tang record and a batman tee. YOU GUYS. It's still, not, real.
I know together we're moving forward, but I feel a lot of that is because we have to. I just fucking miss you, dude. I miss you so much. Don't ever take small moments like concerts with your fave people for granted.

Saturday was a friend's birthday where he wanted everyone to dress up (formally vintage). I don't understand people who show up to theme parties not themed. Especially if you knew about it beforehand. I mean, if you're randomly showing up because you heard about it, or coming from work, fine. But the whole "too cool" to participate is all sorts of silly to me. Regardless it was super fun. Conversations with strangers and wine make for excellent Saturdays.

Deadlines and tests and exams are hitting me from all directions. One of my e-mail accounts is on lock and I have a shit load of things just cyberly milling around until I can re-access them.

It's cold out now, and tea and soup are my current boyfriend.

My mom rules.

And there's your life update.

Thanks for stopping by. Xo.

WHAT'S NEW WITH YOU BOTCH?

Hey guys..! I must apologize for the lack of blogging lately. I mean, missing one day is really like missing a year, isn't it?!

2012 has really been kind of strange to me. I haven't been working on what I need to get done as much. I keep ignoring everything and telling myself I'll do it later. The term "later" doesn't really have a set date.. which means I basically end up not doing anything remotely close to what I need to do.

I don't want to think about it. I know I should, but I'm going to cling to putting everything off because this break is so needed.

I have been to nine different cities this year. Nine is the number I can think of right now, it could be more. It is more actually, because I just remembered another one. I always seem to do that. Get out of the place when times get tough. It works for me.

I miss Anthony a lot. I think about him all the time when I'm out with people and bite my tongue. I immediately fill my mind with a song or a sitcom clip. It's really hard. It's going to be hard forever, I know that. I'm a little more at peace with the fact I am finally in an acceptance stage over a grieving stage. Tears still flow though.

I've been thinking about moving my blog. Or at least.. re-vamping it. I really don't feel like html'ing and shit all by myself. The whole look of it really bums me out. It's so amateur and basic. I still want things to be clean, I just want it to function better and be more eye-pleasing. Maybe I can convince Bonibelle to help me once we're both in the same city. YEAHYEAH, help me! I haven't opened photoshop in like three years. Yikes.

I haven't been watching TV much. Started to finally finish about five books that have bookmarks half way through. It felt almost tedious at first. As if I was forcing it. One finished book later, I can't stop. It feels good again.

I've also been debating on whether or not I should add a writer to my blog. Truth is, I'm not here enough. I think the concept is really cool, but the narcissus in me tells me not to do it. All up in the air with my jumbled brain!

I'm going to make "later", June 15th. That's my set date for commencing "real life". Til then, please hold off all requests that make me think too much.

It's Friday. Can we have fun?