Friday, May 25, 2012


Hey guys..! I must apologize for the lack of blogging lately. I mean, missing one day is really like missing a year, isn't it?!

2012 has really been kind of strange to me. I haven't been working on what I need to get done as much. I keep ignoring everything and telling myself I'll do it later. The term "later" doesn't really have a set date.. which means I basically end up not doing anything remotely close to what I need to do.

I don't want to think about it. I know I should, but I'm going to cling to putting everything off because this break is so needed.

I have been to nine different cities this year. Nine is the number I can think of right now, it could be more. It is more actually, because I just remembered another one. I always seem to do that. Get out of the place when times get tough. It works for me.

I miss Anthony a lot. I think about him all the time when I'm out with people and bite my tongue. I immediately fill my mind with a song or a sitcom clip. It's really hard. It's going to be hard forever, I know that. I'm a little more at peace with the fact I am finally in an acceptance stage over a grieving stage. Tears still flow though.

I've been thinking about moving my blog. Or at least.. re-vamping it. I really don't feel like html'ing and shit all by myself. The whole look of it really bums me out. It's so amateur and basic. I still want things to be clean, I just want it to function better and be more eye-pleasing. Maybe I can convince Bonibelle to help me once we're both in the same city. YEAHYEAH, help me! I haven't opened photoshop in like three years. Yikes.

I haven't been watching TV much. Started to finally finish about five books that have bookmarks half way through. It felt almost tedious at first. As if I was forcing it. One finished book later, I can't stop. It feels good again.

I've also been debating on whether or not I should add a writer to my blog. Truth is, I'm not here enough. I think the concept is really cool, but the narcissus in me tells me not to do it. All up in the air with my jumbled brain!

I'm going to make "later", June 15th. That's my set date for commencing "real life". Til then, please hold off all requests that make me think too much.

It's Friday. Can we have fun?


Bonibelle said...

I've been struggling to find photoshop for this stupid laptop of mine so I'm on free trials when I need it hahaha but don't worry cause it's almost all the same once you start using it. Just.. more cool shit to do.

HTML!? The last time I used html was in 2004/2005. I don't even blog shit. I just use notepad from time to time cause it timestamps my shit lol. Fuck I'm embarrassing.

Adobe Photoshop and HTML for Dummies/Idiots.. here we come! Haha

syntifik said...

I opened photoshop to try and do a menu for this guy's frozen yogurt place. Then I got lazy, and closed it.. and I lied and told him my computer broke. HAHA!


I use note pad all the time! Haha! I also still use real life note pads, and memo pads and have little pieces and blurbs all over the place. Even on napkins.

I can't wait til I get rich, I will have an assistant solely dedicated to taking all my blurbs and storing them in an orderly fashion.