Wednesday, March 30, 2016


Another lonely little trophy
If only I could walk a straight line, I'd make it home free
And everybody in this bar thinks they know me
And my story like "poor me" (yea, pour me another homie)
I can count the days 'til you come back
Or I can follow them sunrays down to the traintracks
I can stumble drunk over hope and love
Or I could keep drinking until I sober up


We live in a generation of not being in love, and not being together
But we sure make it feel like we're together
Because we're scared to see each other with somebody else


I need everything in this video (NaS included).

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Jai Paul - BTSTU

I am adding this song to my personal, "When you should be sleeping but can't stop exploring music" playlist. Fuckin' vibes, man.

Don't fuck with me, don't fuck with me
Since you shipped my ass off to sea
I never knew where I was goin'
I went where the water was flowin'

I know I've been gone a long time, but
I'm back and I want what is mine
I know i've been gone a long time, but
I'm back and I want what is mine

The ship was the love of my life
We went down together one night
I surfaced in every shadow
For years I just kissed her goodnight

Monday, March 28, 2016


But I'm gone
Gone to a place you never been
.. Let's fuck around and sin
All my life, where have you been?
It's really you who I want but I'm fucking your friend
Babe, I'mma tell you again
You are the one that I need inside of me
Baby come ride with me
You the only one that can vibe with me

Waved up, goin' up, glowin' up, growin' up.

I've been in Nayarit the past week, luckily for me it's been during Semana Santa. I owe it all to my Lola (grandmother) who made a decision years ago to purchase a condo there. The adventures have been unreal. Here, we (my Aunt and I) stumbled upon an Aztec ceremony, and were invited to watch. A beautiful tribute, performed by beautiful people. So thankful they allowed us to watch this ceremony. Seriously.. this has all been a surreal experience. Waved up. Goin up. Glowin up. Growin up.

Friday, March 18, 2016

On Fridays we wear pink.

Monday, March 14, 2016

Every day can't be the best day.

Unless you get texts like these.

Friday, March 11, 2016


Are you here to rescue me?
Are you here to go and get a check with me?
Are you here to pillow talk?
Or are you here to bounce and pull out when this shit get hard?
Are you here to make shit right
Are you here to loan me your chest when I cry at night?
Are you here to set me up, get me hyped, turn around and just leave my life?
I told him that's that shit that I'm used to
Don't blame me for my issues
He know deep inside I really wanna have him
The little things what makes him so attractive


I was at a party some time ago, experiencing a little anxiety that is the norm to me. I usually get anxiety right before heading somewhere, and for a little while when arriving at my destination. I get a little shakey, hesitant, and I just.. end up being a little off. Upon arriving at a destination, I usually take a few moments to gather myself. I'll either sit, or take a walk, a few breaths and then I'm okay. This is usually mistaken for some sort of unhappiness. I'm not 100% sure what the feeling is (I'm aware it's nervousness but the feeling is more), but I know it's not unhappiness.
Anyway, I've stopped being shy about it. I've told more people what's going on, trying to assure them that it isn't that kind of a feeling. It's a nervousness. So at this party, a friend asked if I was ready, and I told him that I wasn't. I believe my exact words were, "I'm sorry, I'm not ready yet, I'm still pretty fucking nervous to do anything yet". His response? "Cool, take your time. I appreciate your honesty".

Too many times unnerving feelings are punished and thrown as the person having a problem. Although this whole thing might not happen to everyone, I'm comfortable saying how I feel now. I owe that ease of feeling to the pal that responded with such. People watching, I found, is the simplest and quickest way for me to accept my surroundings, accept the change, and place myself in the current. I know that my situation might be a little unique, but for those that might be in the same boat, may I suggest to the people around them.. before approaching someone asking them, "What's wrong?", give them a few minutes to catch themselves. They might need that absorption time.. and to everyone who does do that, thanks. You're making these characteristics so much easier to deal with. I'll be good in five minutes:)

Tuesday, March 8, 2016


I'm a huge fan of dirty songs that don't sound dirty. Yup. That's me, your regular secret scumbag hiding behind an extremely charming instrumental.
Walking the lines like you wanna go higher
(I love it, love it, love it love it)
You wanna go home, watch me dim the lights
You're going real far, you must've been tired
(I love it, love it, love it love it)

Sunday, March 6, 2016


A friend of mine held a basement party in celebration of her birthday, downtown, last night. She had the place stacked with pizza, candy, and good people. A projector was up for people to play selections, and a few pals played tunes on the tables. All in all, a really chill night. Sometimes visuals aide in sound, they allow you to hear songs differently than you would regularly hear them. Aside from a zillion and one snake videos, MF Doom live, and a lot of Planet Earth, a few more gems came up, worth sharing. Here are my top three from last night..

40's of OE are disgusting, and so is gin.. but don't these just make you wanna grab some bottles with your best pals and weekend for the rest of your life?

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

March 2nd.

Today a nurse used the round table at our GNM meeting to thank me for the work I do. A bouquet of thank you's in a room full of your co-workers (humble humble) is totes the thing I needed to get through this week. March 2nd is generally kinda sad (RIP, Kuya!) but the little appreciations can really go a long way. I love my team and everything they do, and I'm so lucky to be a part of such a wonderful family.

Love is love!

Tuesday, March 1, 2016


There are certain people that you're so infatuated with, they become oxygen. And you can feel it at that point. You can breathe them in, you inhale them deep whenever they're around. It seeps deep into your veins and goes so fast, quite what I imagine heroin to feel like. Don't know exactly - haven't tried!
Standing there, in a dark corner of a bar, this song comes on.. and you can't help but see that one person dancing to it. That feeling.. that inhale someone deep feeling.. it isn't clingy. That's when you know.. they're someone you need to pay attention to.
It feels good being on the opposite end too when that person inhales you.. and you want them to keep doing it. You feed off it. It's energy. It makes you sweat, yet comfortable. It's the constant that keeps your feet moving, and their veins flowing.

Till there was you, I know what you're needing
My thoughts are leading, me straight into your eyes
What can I do? I'm looking right at you
This feeling is all new, I want you addicted to me


So I got these today, because basically.. I'm amazing and so.. I bought them. Thanks TUB and Clash!