Monday, November 30, 2020


I'ma hurry
Take my time
With a walk
See a lot
Feel so moody
Might be moody


Friday, November 27, 2020

I think I wanna kiss you..

Remember the feeling of that specific someone grabbing you and kissing you while people continued about their business around you? Yeah, I barely remember either, but this track almost fully cemented me into a kiss that meant a lot to me. Drunken, sloppy, in the middle of a bustling city street, right there in front of everybody. Kisses should be like that. Kisses should be bold and unexpected (but still consensual!). Beautiful, smooth, sexy track.


Thursday, November 26, 2020


 Going to commit today's focus to good music, writing, my year plan, and trying not to cry while working at a Covid outbreak site. I know I'm a bit behind on keeping in touch with people, especially since my workload has been insane.. but I hope you remember I love you. I hope everyone is staying well, staying home, and not putting themselves at risk. I'm focusing on that too.

Stay focused, Botchy.



What do you want?

What do you really want?

Is it me?

Tuesday, November 24, 2020


Here's a cool house track I found that made me flip the fuck out. In the pandemic crazy, stay home, listen to good music, and as always, happy to help you reach that dreaaaaaaaam. Once that du-du-du-du-du part hits, I HOPE YOU LOSE YOUR MIND LIKE I DID. Also who can translate? I gotta know if what's being said is as sexy as it sounds. Okay back to copious amounts of overtime and no sleep. Take some vitamins!

Love ya, bye.

Saturday, November 7, 2020

Just watching my cutie pie get beautified..


There was something real crazy about the times of AsianAvenue. We all knew SO MUCH ABOUT EVERYONE. Browsing people's pages, having our layouts that took us HOURS to make completely stolen, the guestbooks, the hits, who viewed our page.. but the music. The music was something else. AsianAvenue was pretty much how we found out about music. And, if we didn't right click to check that embed src, well then maybe you should work on your song game. If your crush danced with someone else at the sock hop, well we have a song to reflect THAT now don't we?! Unless you had the right click blocked, damn you're good, can you share that code?! I spent today composing this AsianAvenue playlist, I hope you find a song you like. I fully recommend listening to it on random. AlSo, HoW wAs iT sO eAsy to TyPe LykE tHiS bAck ThEn, WheRe DiD wE FiNd tHe TiMe?!


Friday, November 6, 2020


Big love.
A poem by Botch.

I love you.
With every beat of my heart, and every song I hear.
I love you.
With every waking moment, and every empty beer.
I love you.
With every second of every minute of every hour.
I love you.
As the clock ticks on and I question if time is ours.
As I wake alone in my bed staring at the pillow that should be yours.
When I think of all the festivals, and trips and tours.
And all that I want to accomplish, and all that I want to do -
success isn't mine if it doesn't include you
I want to be a helping hand and help you grow.
I want to wake up each morning and kiss you so you know
That, oh that.. I love you.
I love you.
I want to say it again. I want to say it again.
I want to say I love you, please hear it again.
The second time heard just isn't enough 
to conjure up all the love, it's from down to up
From the ground to the sky, deeper than the bottom of the sea,
more than drops of water in a lake, as many degrees as there are degrees,
as many calls as telemarketers make at dinner time
the amount of echoes in the breeze from wind chimes
as grand as pianos in marble floored ballrooms from the first key to the last
my love is bigger for you than all the grains of sand that were made to make skyscrapers glassed
more than the amount of times I've cried when I see too cute of a dog,
that's a lot, I know you know, you've seen me sob.
your love makes me hot and when I'm not with you I'm cold
Always searching and waiting for your arms to hold 
me. The way you do.
The way I fit in that nook, puzzle pieces, two.
Ugh. You smell good. And I love that chin.
Love when we play fight, love when I win.
Love when you show me songs, and when you ask me what I'm playing
Love how the whole world disappears when it's just us, I'm saying..
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.

This is a draft, somehow it feels complete and incomplete at the same time. I'll add it to the list of unfinished poems. Wish me luck.