Wednesday, October 10, 2012


You may remember me from such blogs as, my livejournal.. or .. this one; which I have neglected a lot for the past few. I have no good reason, either. I mean, I have been in school, but it's not like I've been studying my ass off or anything. Quite the contrary as of late, actually.
I'm super tired. It must be that whole winter creep. As soon as I get home, I just want to go to bed. Waking up is extremely difficult.. but blah blah. First world problems.
Thanksgiving just passed. I'm Canadian, we get ours early. It was our first without Anthony. Every year, it's tradition we gather around the table and take turns saying what we're thankful for. No one was really into it this year. It was really sad. Everyone felt it, but no one said anything for a long while. Then after our dinner, there was a huge piece of cake left, and I asked who it was for. "That's for Anthony!", my cousin shot at me. It was sweet, lovely, but made me cry all over the place. We ended up carving an "A" into the icing.
Ugh, I miss him so much. I came across a picture from a concert we went to last December, he was in the background, smiling his ass off. Looking mad geeked out. I wanted to place myself back at that moment and give him the biggest hug, and tell him how much fun I was having. Super bummed. I don't even want to think about Christmas. He always gave out the best gifts, and always wrapped in newspaper. Last year he got me a Wu-Tang record and a batman tee. YOU GUYS. It's still, not, real.
I know together we're moving forward, but I feel a lot of that is because we have to. I just fucking miss you, dude. I miss you so much. Don't ever take small moments like concerts with your fave people for granted.

Saturday was a friend's birthday where he wanted everyone to dress up (formally vintage). I don't understand people who show up to theme parties not themed. Especially if you knew about it beforehand. I mean, if you're randomly showing up because you heard about it, or coming from work, fine. But the whole "too cool" to participate is all sorts of silly to me. Regardless it was super fun. Conversations with strangers and wine make for excellent Saturdays.

Deadlines and tests and exams are hitting me from all directions. One of my e-mail accounts is on lock and I have a shit load of things just cyberly milling around until I can re-access them.

It's cold out now, and tea and soup are my current boyfriend.

My mom rules.

And there's your life update.

Thanks for stopping by. Xo.


Anonymous said...

Yeah I feel the same way too in the mornings as well i just wanna lay in my bed which i have lately.. And karma just ate me up like the cookie monster or the veggie monster these days..stay fit kids..but I planned to chane that .. Yeah sorry your thanksgiving didn't go that well.. I felt sad days too since my friend I reunited after 10 years is moving to Calgary sucks..but that life right....stay strong and let the memories reflect today and the future.. What is formally vintage is?? Sounds expensive:P..anyways I hope your catch your deadlines and excellent in your exams like wu tang says bring the mf ruckus .. I gotta Ice my knee .. Night

syntifik said...

Thanks love! Winter has gotten the best of us huh?! Sorry your thanksgiving wasn't all that and more! Formally vintage is formal, from the 40's-ish era? It wasn't too expensive as most of my outfit I took from a previous Halloween costume where I was a flapper.