SO DONT LET THE NECESSARY OCCUR! YUP.

hey.. i miss you.

CONFESS THAT SHIT TIL YOUR MOUTH GETS TIRED.
i turn the anger that is forced on me on to other people. i make them feel guilty for shit i did.
i feel that if wrong is done to me, i deserve to get even.
i'm extremely cocky, and believe that i am the greatest thing to come to earth.
i'm also extremely self-conscious about being too skinny or too thick.
if i don't like someone, i thrive on their downfalls, it's like energy.
i try to right my wrongs by finding non-existing loopholes to make them seem okay.
i feel like sometimes, i might only do nice things to make myself look good.
i'm kind of an asshole. i smoke too much.
i talk a lot of shit. i spill drinks on people i don't like.
i yell at people, i cuss like a fucking sailor and i actually like intimidation.

i'm an in-sensitive, arrogant, heartless, whiny little bitch & think i'm a princess.

& the staircase to perfection never seemed this long.
i know it's impossible to reach the top, but i won't stop climbing.
i need to better myself, & maybe not just for me, for him too. & her. & him. & her, and i like herrr.. and i like herrrr tooooo (there's the joke so this post isn't so seriouzzzz)

regardless of how much i hate this, i deserve every bit of how things are right now.
it's karma. slaps on the wrist aren't always enough.. and i know that. it's just hard to know that. you know?!

time to get your mind right. toughen up botch, you love the kid.
19 days left.