IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME COMING.

I've been so emotional the past few weeks. Not ALL days have been bad, but I can definitely feel my brain leaning toward the sad. I find myself often worrying about the people I love. People I've lost. I don't mean to dwell on the past, but there are days where I find myself wondering, "what if.."..... what if this? What if that? Some days are easier to live in the moment and right now, and others, particularly cloudy days have me questioning why things are the way they are. With all that said, here's what I made for August. I hope you find a song you like. Xo.

EASY BABY.

 

Sorry I'm late. I've been healing.



Hope you find a song you like.

CALL ME BABY.

It took me a while to get June posted because I was so ridiculously busy. I shot my first commercial! In a pandemic! Also have had a few interviews and trying to organize conferences and workshops and trying to keep sane. Of course, MUSIC HAS HELPED. So here's a late, but great, playlist. I took some time at the lake and let this one bop and it suited the warm weather nice. So enjoy it while you can because I'll be bringing in July in the next few days! This playlist is definitely shorter, but sweet too.

Hope you find a song you like.
Xo,
Botch

MAY 2021

I've been trying to post my May playlist for a few weeks now and unfortunately either Spotify glitches out, or my computer glitches out! It's also been a scorcher so I've been up to outside activities, but I do have a lot of music to share. I was finally able to get May going today, so enjoy! And hope you find a song you like ayyyyyyyy :D:D


Xo,
Botch

Everybody dies a little, I just wanna dance tonight.

April 2021, a promising month for me. I detoxed and had a loving relationship, with music! I am sooo in love with Noname, so I listened to her on loop a lot! But there are quite a few gems in here, a lot of hip hop, house and indie of course, but also some new genres that aren't my norm. Some Lido Pimienta, who I had the pleasure of seeing live just before the pandemic hit, and WHAT A SHOW. I can't wait to go to live shows again, honestly that's the thing I'm missing the most during this, live music.

I took a bit of a digital break, spent some time by the fire, went a few days without WiFi and reconnected to the biggest love of my life, music. Things aren't moving at all, and they are also, moving. I have a meeting with the mayor in a couple of weeks! I'm continuing to build my life and focus on the best version of myself. Landscaping is being completed, I have a truck now, my doggies are healing and happy. I'm still working insane hours, but I'm feeling great now that I'm vaccinated. I'm single without any dependents but somehow my taxes didn't completely destroy me even though I worked an entire year without any days off! So. We're moving along. 

I hope you're doing well. I hope this music heals you, helps you, moves you. With much love, a curated playlist, just for you! And as always, I hope you find a song you like.

Xo,

Botch

I don't wanna tell you but I'm feeling your junk.

Took a while with this one, and couldn't quite.. get there. Had a weird relationship with music in March, heard a few bops, a few albums, but I was honestly more *sparkle* vibes *sparkle* lol. I think that had a lot to do with the kind of person/mood I was in this month. I really needed to chill the fuck out and listen to some familiar music. Took some time to relax. Didn't check music blogs too much, didn't talk to many people so no track for track with pals, no research was done for this one. I listened to *a lot* of my older playlists. This one is pretty chill so throw ya feet up. As always, hope this playlist finds you well, and!!!!....hope you find a song you like.

Xo,
Botch

Go tell your boy, 'cause he needs the alert.

 

Hey. Well, listened to a lot of relationship songs this month cuz February. Duh. But also, came across a lot of bops! And okay sure, this playlist runs over 6hrs but it's actually one of my shorter playlists. Why's that?! ..because I listened to the same songs over and over again! Really fell inlove with Kah-lo and Michael Brun this month. Yowzahs. Hope you find a song you like, or love.

Xx,
Botch

A day with Andrew.

Had a lot of fun with music this month. Listened A LOT. Hope you find a song you like.

xo,
Botch

SORRY DARLIN' DEARLY DEPARTED THE BELLS.

I HATE COVID. I hate it so much. I hate being trapped, not being able to see anyone. Seeing the casualties. I hate house shopping during a pandemic. I miss my friends. I also have no desire to go anywhere or be with anyone at all. It is a strange, strange fight.

I'm loving myself while hating myself. I've put in time to art projects and writing and definitely feel like I truly am kicking ass a lot of days. I'm inspired by fashion and music blogs, videos and the creativity that artists have poured into the world this year.

I spent a lot of my life crying over heartbreak. I just love to love! I've been cheated on in every single relationship I've been in. I've chased my exes after they've been in new relationships because I believed them when they told me I still held the top spot. I've been a dumb naive girl who believes. Why did I ever.. how could I ever.. do that to myself? I'm still not healed from past traumas. I hold trauma deep down and sometimes it bubbles over.

I'm making a difference. I know that my community work may sometimes feel small and that sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough. I run out of time and can't keep up with all commitments, but in the end.. I know I am making a difference, and my workload is actually ridiculous. I know the work I do is needed and I represent change. I won the Citizenship Excellence award when I was 8 years old, we can ONLY go up from there. I HAVE to keep this up for as long as my life lasts.

I'm sad realizing I'm losing my dogs. I'm sad when they're sick, when they're in pain. I'm sad to have two family members face major surgeries and so much death. The clouds are haunting.

I'm still hopeful. Still hopeful. That there is a glimmer of light and love, and those glimmers belong to me. I will bask in the sunshine and smile. I will dance in the kitchen. I will overcome sad days and bounce around shining bright, reminding everyone how happy I can be, how happy life can be. I will go to live shows and dance to my favorite djs, my favorite artists, with my biggest loves. I'm in love with love. I'm in love with music. This playlist is all of that, a true, tired testament of December. I hope you find a song you like. Cheers, darlin'

Xo,
Botch

OKAY BUT NO.. I'm actually an alien.

November flew right past me. I've been working 6 days a week, 10-14hr shifts so I barely see sunlight. And although I was extremely busy, I was able to listen to a lot of music. I almost felt like I lost myself for a bit there. Instead of lipstick and beers it was N95 masks and tears. Instead of a cute fit, it was face shields. All of November's focus was Covid-19, more so than the entire pandemic, for me. So I really used music to escape and take me places. Take me to past dates, past parties, past festivals, friends and loves. This whole thing has been a wild ride, stay up. Love you, and as always, I hope you find a song you like.

Xo,
Botch