CALL ME BABY.

It took me a while to get June posted because I was so ridiculously busy. I shot my first commercial! In a pandemic! Also have had a few interviews and trying to organize conferences and workshops and trying to keep sane. Of course, MUSIC HAS HELPED. So here's a late, but great, playlist. I took some time at the lake and let this one bop and it suited the warm weather nice. So enjoy it while you can because I'll be bringing in July in the next few days! This playlist is definitely shorter, but sweet too.

Hope you find a song you like.
Xo,
Botch

I don't wanna tell you but I'm feeling your junk.

Took a while with this one, and couldn't quite.. get there. Had a weird relationship with music in March, heard a few bops, a few albums, but I was honestly more *sparkle* vibes *sparkle* lol. I think that had a lot to do with the kind of person/mood I was in this month. I really needed to chill the fuck out and listen to some familiar music. Took some time to relax. Didn't check music blogs too much, didn't talk to many people so no track for track with pals, no research was done for this one. I listened to *a lot* of my older playlists. This one is pretty chill so throw ya feet up. As always, hope this playlist finds you well, and!!!!....hope you find a song you like.

Xo,
Botch

Go tell your boy, 'cause he needs the alert.

 

Hey. Well, listened to a lot of relationship songs this month cuz February. Duh. But also, came across a lot of bops! And okay sure, this playlist runs over 6hrs but it's actually one of my shorter playlists. Why's that?! ..because I listened to the same songs over and over again! Really fell inlove with Kah-lo and Michael Brun this month. Yowzahs. Hope you find a song you like, or love.

Xx,
Botch

OKAY BUT NO.. I'm actually an alien.

November flew right past me. I've been working 6 days a week, 10-14hr shifts so I barely see sunlight. And although I was extremely busy, I was able to listen to a lot of music. I almost felt like I lost myself for a bit there. Instead of lipstick and beers it was N95 masks and tears. Instead of a cute fit, it was face shields. All of November's focus was Covid-19, more so than the entire pandemic, for me. So I really used music to escape and take me places. Take me to past dates, past parties, past festivals, friends and loves. This whole thing has been a wild ride, stay up. Love you, and as always, I hope you find a song you like.

Xo,
Botch

I think I wanna kiss you..

Remember the feeling of that specific someone grabbing you and kissing you while people continued about their business around you? Yeah, I barely remember either, but this track almost fully cemented me into a kiss that meant a lot to me. Drunken, sloppy, in the middle of a bustling city street, right there in front of everybody. Kisses should be like that. Kisses should be bold and unexpected (but still consensual!). Beautiful, smooth, sexy track.

xx.

YOU MUST BE MESSED UP TOO.

 

Covid-19 is fucking hard. I'm really thankful I've been spending the last few months focusing on music. It's really aiding my journey as I navigate through this craziness. Now that there are positive cases at work, my workload has been insane. We are short staff (because what healthcare facility isn't right now?!) and there isn't enough time in the day. I had SEVENTEEN sick calls the other day. I worked a 13hr shift and as I was leaving I said goodbye to staff that were there LONGER THAN ME. Some healthcare staff can't go home due to the risk of bringing the virus home and are sleeping at the hospital or hotels reserved for healthcare workers. Routines have changed and everyone is putting insane overtime to meet the demands that Miss Rona requires. With all of that, we're also trying not to get the virus. Being a link in the chain of transmission is and has been my greatest fear throughout all of this.. and it really makes me miss everything.
I miss friends, I miss routine love, I miss my mom and my family. I know what's important, and I want everyone who is in my world to stay safe and happy, and that is definitely hard sometimes. So what's the answer? Small improvements, self-care, and doing things that help. For me, music is a huge part of that healing. Meghan told me the other day, "I've never met anyone who felt the way you do about music". It's literally my first love, and these past months of curating playlists continue to solidify how important it is to me. Thank you so much for the positive feedback. Shit is really real right now, but we just gotta focus on doing the next fifteen minutes. That's it. Get through that, and then another fifteen. My inbox is always open for anyone that is feeling challenged and would like to vent or cry or even just chat. I hope you find a song in this one that you connect with.

All my love,
Botch
Xo

A N N I V E R S A R Y

In case you almost missed it like I did. 

During the pandemic, my friend Julius and I have had occasional weekend video chats since we can't hang out with real people. We drink, we chat, like we're at a bar. Eventually we both just get really in our feelings, and one night he expressed how when we were done chatting, he was gonna listen to Bryson. And that my friends, is when I decided our chats were, "The Bryson Tillery Distillery". Visit any time, it's a terrible, wonderful time. Coincidentally this album dropped on Julius' birthday! How fitting. Happy birthday, bud!

This album has a lot to live up to, I'm on my second listen in and it's definitely nowhere near the greatness of "Trapsoul". However I might have a drink or two at the distillery tonight and compose a better review after the "in my feels" listen. *Sobs. 

Update: Well the album's kind of boring to be honest. I've listened to it a couple times and nothing has really stood out to me. Trapsoul is just that good.

Have a nice weekend.

Xx,

Botch

LIFT ME UP ON TOP OF YOU, AND CALL ME YOUR GIRL..

 

See I was swiping through me memories to see you, boy 

When we're apart you know I miss that energy 

 And that’s something they just can’t deny 

 No matter how many hours have passed 

 How many miles apart , nothin' else ever lasts 

 'Cause no one can make you feel like this 

 See you could wash any man right out of my hair 

I could make you wish to god that she was never there  

So lift me up on top of you and call me your girl 

We're hitting 4th gear, I’m on top of the world

WE ALL TRY - A MIX BY KILUSAN

You can always count on Kilusan to dig deep into your feels and take you on a musical journey of healing. Love is tough and love is beautiful. Love is hard and love is wonderful. Be it on your own or partnered up, this mix offers a taste of what it is to love. Yes, it certainly is 7 in the morning. Grab a coffee and let Summer Walker's voice join you, let smooth vocals join you, let your feels join you, and let's ride out this R&B mix like we fully updating our 2020 AsianAvenue relationship status.

Xo,

Botch

NO ROLE MODELS AND I'M HERE RIGHT NOW.

Some pals made a mix in celebration of a new night they'll be playing. "New New Thursdays" at Maw's Garage will officially be bringing you Friday, on a Thursday. The night starts next week, and aside from some tunes, there is also NO COVER. Perfect for when you're done with the work week, but it's only Thursday (that would be me - every week).

The above mix is a fusion of new and old hip hop and r&b. Go ahead and give it a listen, treat yoself.

HEART WON'T STOP.

AT LEAST WE DIED TOGETHER, THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT.

I had a dream last night you gave me a ring with a fucking castle on it..

She ain't got no soul, she ain't got no heart. Love will stunt your growth.
Love will make it hard to stay sober. So hard to stay sober.

I'mma be fine anyway.
I'mma be cool.
I'mma keep calm.
I'mma be right anyway.
Better than you, better than her.
I'mma be on anyway.

BLURRED LINES.

This!


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