CHECK IN TIME.

 I've been putting a lot of time focusing on my self. My growth, my finances, my new space. As all these things have come to me, it's only now that I'm finally starting to realize that I've somewhat neglected allocating my time toward other things that fulfill my life.

How are you, really?

What are three things that have inspired you this month?

What were the bad/good things that happened today?

What do you need right now that you aren't communicating?

Can I help you?

These are a few questions that I'm approaching the world with today. A friend of mine is currently going through a traumatic experience that made me realize how quickly you could lose someone, especially during all of Covid. I've been there. This shit is hard. I hope I can offer some peace and some love, since I've been going through a complete turn around of a year, I'm in a good place to have conversations right now.

I hope if you're reading this, you know that you mean something to me. Whether we know each other, or not. If we don't, you took the time to visit me, to read my words. That is the entire world to me! I've always wanted to connect to just one person, and my heart soars knowing that it might be *you*. So thank you, you've shaped me.

If we do know each other, hi.  I hope you're happy, I hope you're well. I'm not always around, but I'd like to chat when you're free. Message me.

I love you, and hope you saw a cute dog today.

Xo,

Botch

"BED HEAD IS AMAZING."

Room 220.

I CAN'T BE THAT FOR YOU, AND I'M SORRY.

I've only been in love twice. I've loved three times, but as far as the whole "can't feel my face-just wanna be with you-you're heroin and cocaine-yes you're drugs-head over heels-insane-crazy-beautiful-I want to breathe you-devour myself in all of you-oh lawd can't stop" type of love, yeah. That's only been twice. There's a difference between being in love, and loving someone, and I can't pinpoint exactly what it is, but I'll tell you as much as I think/know. I think the whole loving someone, includes respect, truth, and a whole lot of wanting to spend time with that person. Now, being in love, includes pain, occasional lies, and effort. That's kind of fucked up, isn't it? I mean, shouldn't being in love be as lovely and skip through the field of daisies happy as loving? It isn't.
BUT, once you've been in love. The feeling is so over-powering that it's hard to let go of, no matter how tiring it can be at times. However, being in love, and loving, despite their differences, do share a common denominator.. you can't pick it.
Some people talk about love at first sight, which I have never personally experienced. I have started loving and then grown to be in love. It's been a rollercoaster of tears and pain and hurts and fuck you's. The good's though, the good's. The hand holding, and the listening, and the laughing, and the breakfasts and lunches, and days of laying in bed not even talking.. outweigh everything. Being in love requires you be best friends, it requires you to love flaws, it's attraction, and lust, and sex, and hip hop shows, and movies, and the devouring I first opened with.

I can't be that to you, and I'm sorry. I'm working on loving myself right now, and I'm also in love right now. Now, my current relationship is nowhere near perfect, but I believe in it. And after all of.. everything, it's helping me to love myself, and if you can find that, you stick to it.

I'm fully sorry if I ever led you to believe that I could be more than your friend. You were truly one of the nicest, most supportive people to enter my world. Don't doubt that you weren't a part of my world, don't doubt your importance. It existed. You were an amazing friend, and I hate that I was hurting you this whole time.

Conquer the world, explore new restaurants, meet new people, show up at a party, don't ever question what people think of you, just be a good person and I promise everything will go great for you. And the future girl that snags you is so lucky, so stay golden, for yourself and for her.

CAMPING WITH MY FAVORITES!

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STUFF I GOOGLE

Isn't Google funny? It's absolutely crazy to me that in this day and age, we refer to a search engine for EVERYTHING. Seriously, everything. I don't even remember what life was like using an actual map, or trying a restaurant before a review. How did we find out about albums?! It's all so hazy.

There are however, also the times you're drunk with your friends, the vodka has gotten to all of your heads, you're at some Chinese restaurant at 4am, post-party, and someone says "Yo, google 'dwarf bunnies' for a sec.". That's where this idea derived from. That, and the utter fear of my Google history being read out loud one day. I need to beat the odds and embarrass myself before someone else does it.

I'm keeping a log of everything I Google from here on in. I don't plan on giving any explanation, because I think initial reaction will prove to be quite comedic, however, if you really want to know, ask. I'll most certainly tell the story. So, with that said, as of late, here's some stuff I Google'd:

- Pablo Escobar
- racketeering
- Atmosphere question that lyrics
- puck bunny
- seven deadly sins
- how did they make nicholson smile joker
- what is professional biking called fast
- the inventor of straws
- can dogs get STDs
- songs to sex to
- dwarf bunnies
- tennis riot
- golf riot
- David Fustino
- Marschino cherries
- stature

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