I don't wanna tell you but I'm feeling your junk.

Took a while with this one, and couldn't quite.. get there. Had a weird relationship with music in March, heard a few bops, a few albums, but I was honestly more *sparkle* vibes *sparkle* lol. I think that had a lot to do with the kind of person/mood I was in this month. I really needed to chill the fuck out and listen to some familiar music. Took some time to relax. Didn't check music blogs too much, didn't talk to many people so no track for track with pals, no research was done for this one. I listened to *a lot* of my older playlists. This one is pretty chill so throw ya feet up. As always, hope this playlist finds you well, and!!!!....hope you find a song you like.

Xo,
Botch

ESCO THE PUPPY DOG.

 Esco is back! She had a very expensive vet stay but the vet says she will be able to remain in our lives for longer. She has to be on medication for the remainder of her life but she is peppy, back to her old self, and stupid cuddly. I'm so thrilled to have her back. Gonna have to eat ramen for a few months but we did it!!! And I'd do it again and again! DOGGO OWNER FOR LIFE.

DOGGOS.

Ila wouldn't eat dinner last night. And as I previously mentioned, she refuses to go to the bathroom without her best bud. She is a super cuddly dog, but was extra cuddly last night. I only have a double bed, but it felt like I had a twin the way she nuzzled in so close to me. (I don't wanna hear it with you people who say your dogs shouldn't sleep in your bed - I disagree okkkkkk).

Anyway Ila and I be both missin' Esco like crazy. Sleeps have been the toughest for me, but it seems meal times have been the toughest for Ila. Hang in there lil buddy!

Darling, Esco.

I miss Esco. Terribly. My other doggo won't go potty without her. 

This isn't a home without her :(

Stop the planet, I want to get off.

DON'T WANNA..

ANOTHER GOODBYE.

I was unbelievably sad last Friday, but had trouble pin pointing what was keeping me down. I found out last Saturday that my cousin had passed away from Covid. Odd how sometimes things like that just.. line up. The last time I saw him was at his mom's funeral, which was only a few months ago when we just started lockdown. The funeral was by appointment only due to Covid, so it was short, we had time together but not much, maybe a couple of hours. We talked about past slumber parties, the BBQ my dad made, his dad's jokes. We agreed that another cousin reunion was due soon when "all of this was over".

He introduced me to his fiance and was happy to speak of her. I will forever remember that moment of praise for one of my lasting memories of him. See you later, Kuya P.

People come and people go, and it's another day on this big rock in a grand universe where I examine my purpose, what I'm leaving behind, and who I'm leaving behind.

I love you, thank you for joining me, and hearing my words, reading them. Thank you.

Xo,

Botch