YOU MUST BE MESSED UP TOO.

 

Covid-19 is fucking hard. I'm really thankful I've been spending the last few months focusing on music. It's really aiding my journey as I navigate through this craziness. Now that there are positive cases at work, my workload has been insane. We are short staff (because what healthcare facility isn't right now?!) and there isn't enough time in the day. I had SEVENTEEN sick calls the other day. I worked a 13hr shift and as I was leaving I said goodbye to staff that were there LONGER THAN ME. Some healthcare staff can't go home due to the risk of bringing the virus home and are sleeping at the hospital or hotels reserved for healthcare workers. Routines have changed and everyone is putting insane overtime to meet the demands that Miss Rona requires. With all of that, we're also trying not to get the virus. Being a link in the chain of transmission is and has been my greatest fear throughout all of this.. and it really makes me miss everything.
I miss friends, I miss routine love, I miss my mom and my family. I know what's important, and I want everyone who is in my world to stay safe and happy, and that is definitely hard sometimes. So what's the answer? Small improvements, self-care, and doing things that help. For me, music is a huge part of that healing. Meghan told me the other day, "I've never met anyone who felt the way you do about music". It's literally my first love, and these past months of curating playlists continue to solidify how important it is to me. Thank you so much for the positive feedback. Shit is really real right now, but we just gotta focus on doing the next fifteen minutes. That's it. Get through that, and then another fifteen. My inbox is always open for anyone that is feeling challenged and would like to vent or cry or even just chat. I hope you find a song in this one that you connect with.

All my love,
Botch
Xo

HOT NIGHTS, COMING. KEEP THE CAR RUNNING.

Lavender fingers
Swallow my pollen
Gold, I swam into your spell
In the rite of god we fell
You were blush and I laid bare
You had me howling
Cold I fell into your skin
In the night you let me under your sin
You had me howling

I listened to this song every single day in July. Every. Single. Day. It still tugs at my heart every time I hear it I hear it throughout the years. Good music can last a lifetime. Love you.

Xx

A HARD KNOCK.

Covid has finally arrived at my workplace, and I can fully say I'm not thrilled. I don't want to answer the door, but the bang of the knock grows louder and louder with every draining minute. I am so so tired.

THE NIGHT WE MET, I KNEW I, NEEDED YOU SO..

So won't you say you love me? I'll make you so proud of me..

IT'S ALWAYS AROUND ME, ALL THIS NOISE BUT..

I AM OBSESSED WITH TAME IMPALA. OBSESSED. I can name a few artists this has happened to me with. Nas, Childish Gambino, Atmosphere, Justice, Daft Punk, Kid Cudi.. it happens, but it's rare. However, at the beginning of a field trip, this song played.. and I knew I liked this song.. BUT ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! Front to back this song is a journey. Absolutely 100% perfect, and to have Soulwax (WHO I ALSO LOVE SO MUCH) remix it!! I can't even begin to .. I can't tell you how much my love for music was reaffirmed. I could listen to this song on loop for days, and I already have. My brother and I are both convinced we introduced Tame Impala to each other. He says I heard Tame from him, and I say he heard it from me. I'm not sure who introduced Tame, but I can't believe I wasn't on this level of appreciation right away.

HE IS SOOO GOOD, and he's all I want to listen to right now. This song really makes me feel like everything is going to be alright. Relax your mind, relax your body, relax your soul, it's gonna feel so good. Go away other music, we vibin'

A N N I V E R S A R Y

In case you almost missed it like I did. 

During the pandemic, my friend Julius and I have had occasional weekend video chats since we can't hang out with real people. We drink, we chat, like we're at a bar. Eventually we both just get really in our feelings, and one night he expressed how when we were done chatting, he was gonna listen to Bryson. And that my friends, is when I decided our chats were, "The Bryson Tillery Distillery". Visit any time, it's a terrible, wonderful time. Coincidentally this album dropped on Julius' birthday! How fitting. Happy birthday, bud!

This album has a lot to live up to, I'm on my second listen in and it's definitely nowhere near the greatness of "Trapsoul". However I might have a drink or two at the distillery tonight and compose a better review after the "in my feels" listen. *Sobs. 

Update: Well the album's kind of boring to be honest. I've listened to it a couple times and nothing has really stood out to me. Trapsoul is just that good.

Have a nice weekend.

Xx,

Botch