SCARBOROUGH WITHDRAWLS.

I dislike not being able to smush my cold face into his warm back. I dislike not waking up to "Botch, let's wake up". I dislike eating dinner by myself. I dislike reaching to the right side of the bed to grasp nothing. I dislike being cold. I dislike having to light my cigarettes myself. I dislike not being able to bang whenever I want.
I fucking miss Alex so much right now, it's stupid. I'm pretty boy crazy, but even right now.. a hot dude is just like.. "Ugh, you probably listen to shit music and hate smokers or something". THIS IS DUMB! What I wouldn't give to be having a beer with the cudder right now! Or even laying in his lap while he watches sports. Fuck this "no Alex in my life" bull shit. Bull shit.